may 7th 2012

i haven’t posted much lately. there’s been too much going on. but hmm. i’m WAY thankful for colleen (brad’s mommy). she just..understands. and i thought it’d be weird or awkward or she’d be mad but when i first saw her she just came up to me and said “my little sense, i love you.” and she hugged me. sigh. thank you. i just needed to vent that. then played indoor soccer with julio and his cousins. fun. that was friday. saturday we watched both the sitter and straw dogs. omg, both movies sucked so much. then i dyed my hair and stayed home. sunday i went to church. then back to brad’s and watched survivor and new girl. and played cowboys vs. indians. then just sat around for a while. and this morning i woke up late. meh. i had about ten minutes to get ready. hair looked ok? so i left it down but aehh, never again. i found a bobby pin in the car and used it to keep my bun in place. it was all over the place. english was lame. then three hour break. did homework. ate. and knocked out. i woke up just in time for math. mehh. i did bad on the math midterm. 75. lame. but he’s supposed to curve so that should go up. then bio 20. meh, boring. always go with your gut instinct. i got another 75 on that midterm. i’m doing horrible. mehh. then hour break. finished my chem stuff. and chem started early. i was paired with abram. sorry ady. we finished pretty fast, racing against danny and giang. then went shopping. i tried on like twenty dresses that seemed modest but ended up getting one. sad day. all the dresses were cute but they were either too short or i need an extra small ‘cause they fit weird and loose. and i got some underwear, woo. then i came home. and bradley came over. we ate, while my parents were watching the devil inside super loudly in the living room. it kept making me spaz out. and brad left..hmm. i’m proud of him for doing the right thing. and now i’m here. i need to finish some homework and shower. and fall asleep to hey arnold! aehh. i guess boys hated helga ‘cause she was a bully but i’m speaking for us girls even though it might be wrong, but i wanted helga and arnold to be together! and who voiced arnold?? thank you jesus for his voice, it is lovely. and now imma get off. bye people.

may 3rd 2012

..continued. we have a week to know for sure but yeah. i’m scared. really scared. i was wishing he wouldn’t leave but now i wish he could. i feel like it’s all my fault.

may 3rd 2012

i was up from around 2-4:30. really bad night and sleep. i got up at 6:30. braided my hair. changed. off to school. i actually got there early. but omg. this has been the worst bio session. three long hours..my eyes felt so heavy and hurt i just wanted some sleep. then calculus..finished my chem homework. i think calc is a tad easy right now. mr.udupa you have helped me so still. then chemistry lecture. i..hate..that..class. i think everyone does. i hope he gets fired. but not a good class. then came home and bradley was here. he was telling me about some stuff we were talking about last night. he went to work and i napped. i woke up and started watching my brother’s prom video with my parents. then i went outside with my cat and dog. i was just petting them. yeah sometimes i play around with mr. levy and tease him and he’ll get mad but i wasn’t doing anything to him. i got up to leave and he grabbed on to my leg and i was like wtc? get off, so i got him off and he attacked my right arm. he was so mad. he was biting me and scratching me. so i got him off but he grabbed on to my left arm and i couldn’t get him off so i even got up and he was just clinging on to it. i had to swing my arm and he fell off. i threw him off. but my arms are way cut up now and wouldn’t stop bleeding. i started crying. i was so scared. it hurt i guess, but i was just scared. i did nothing to him. so my parents started freaking out..and made me rub alcohol on the cuts..meh. it stings. then bradley came over. he helped me put bandages on my arms. i looked kinda cool. like a boxer or something. but bradley and i just talked. and sigh. i’m scared crapless. i regret some stuff and now i guess were gonna pay for it. he’s taking care of it right now. but there’s prolly nothing we can do. i’m scared. really scared. sorry that seems vague but it’s just personal. now i just sit here and wait though. tommorow will probably suck. six hour break but at least i have work orientation and i’ll be able to work next week. but ok. bye everyone.

april 27th 2012

i woke up around five. stayed in bed til 5:30 then got up. man, my hair’s always so frizzy. school. english. finished that essay. uh. then six hour break but my lovely babe surprised me and showed up at ucr. woo. i didn’t have to spend it by myself. so we were hungry and ate some taco bell. those chalupa things are good! then we walked over to the regency theater and the earlist showing of any movie was at 11:30 which would give me just enough time to make it to chem si. the movie was think like a man. i guess brad had heard of it but i had no clue at all. so we had about two hours til it started. we played the little arcade games. i beat him at racing. and our school actually has lectures in the movie theater. how cool. then we sat around and i did my homework while bradley played tetris. he beats the marathon like it’s nothing. he puts me to shame. meh. then it was about time for the movie. there were about six other peopel in there. and omg, the movie was actually really funny. i liked it. but it was a chickish flick i guess but we enjoyed it. a lot. then we stopped at this like sanrio little shop by our school. i did not know that was there! but i got a little totoro keychain. woo. adding more stuff to my car keys. then i went to chem si. man, i can’t wait to be over with this chem. then i came home. i will never ever again wear a sweater with no shirt under. not in this bipolar california weather. got home all sweaty. and i’m going way into detail about my day. i’m tired, haha. then home and ate some cookies. watched the office. got ready. went over to sierras and over to redlands for the indoor gokarting. bradley first, me second, jake third, and sierra last. good race good race. i got into the thirty seconds. woo. then we played pool. aehh jake was really good. not fair. brad and i lost every time. meh meh meh. and now i’m home. and ready to sleep even though i’m kinda hungry. haven’t ate much. butok, goodnight kids.

april 24th 2012

my alarm rang at 6 but i got up at 6:30. i feel so lazy to get ready anymore. there’s no point to it. i went to school. running late. got to bio. aehh, i enjoy that class a ton. three hours. then to calc. it didn’t seem too slow this time. learning, woo. then to chemistry. aehh, i hate that class sooooo much. omg. i stopped paying attention after fifteen minutes and the other hour seemed like forever. meh. but then i drove straight to sierra’s house. yey. we didn’t do much other than catch up and talk! it was nice though. man i missed actually having long conversations with a close girl friend. sorry babe, it’s not the same with a guy. but hmm, we talked about everything pretty much. and she did my nails. haha. i can’t have my nails done, i mess it u after five seconds. but they look pretty still. then we went to bakers. my first actual meal of the day. and a smoothie. then i came home. i think i shall be hanging out with her and jake this weekend! but i’ll wait for that to come. right now i need to finish my calc. well..i’m about a quarter done and just showered. i just wanna go to sleep. and sigh..these next two days are gonna be way busy. no. but ok, goodbye people. GOOBY PLS.

april 20-22, 2012

april 20th. well, friday. english was boring. then a six hour break..then chem si. out a tad early, woo. then home. fell asleep. then woke up and got ready. we went to the krikorian and watched the hunger games. aehh, will a movie ever be as good as the book? it wasn’t awful, it was good..but obviously not as good as the book. if i hadn’t read the book i would have been confused. they didn’t explain much. but it was good. we enjoyed it. the only thing i didn’t like about the story in general, in the books too, is that the characters are so young. idk. if the kid’s were to go into the hunger games between the ages of 15 and 21 or something, i think it would have been so much better. so i just pictured katniss and peeta being 18 or so. then i came home.

april 21st. i woke up. i cleaned my room..then i read. i finished mockingjay. it was good. i knew the entire novel would end this kind of a way but it was good. i think the first book was better than the entire series. that’s just me though. but i don’t know what to do anymore. i feel lost without a book. i need another good series. or books in general. then i got ready eventually and went over to brad’s. we went shopping. i got two pretty shirts. we got chinese food then went back to his house. we watched tower heist. i knocked out. then woke up and came home.

april 22. i woke up and watched the punisher. i like that movie. i did some homework. my parents brought some food so i was like i haven’t really ate at the table with them in a while. but no, i couldn’t handle it. i wanted to walk out. my brother and father chew like cows or something. it bothers me so much..ehh. then i started watching carrie. but it was kinda creepy to fall asleep to so i watched some malcolm in the middle. i woke up. got ready, kinda. and before getting to brad’s i stopped at this 99cents store by his house and got us some toy bow and arrows. so after he taught me to shoot, we ran around the front yard shooting arrows and throwing knives at eachother. it was the most fun i’ve had in a while. then we ate some burgers. then we watched survivor. then we tried finding some home videos of brad as a kid but couldn’t find them. then i came home. i just showered. i need to finish some homework. and aehh, i don’t like judging people at all..but you’ve changed so. you try so hard to fit in, it’s..pathetic. but oh well, i can’t do anything about it. sigh, just wanted to vent that, sorry. but ok. bye people.

april 18th 2012

i slept through my alarm so i woke up panicking! but it was only 5:30. but ehh hair was a mess so bun for me. i got ready. then i left for school. meh. english. boorriinngg. then i went to pierce for my discussion participation. whoop whoop. helped me with the written homework. i ate some panda around 10:30. then i read! and read! until 2. i’m so close to finishing. around 30 pages! then chem si. lame. but helpful i guess. then i drove home. i started doing my math homework right away. got that finished then started my chem homework. i feel like i don’t get a single day off from doing work. it sucks. then bradley came over. he surprised me with mockingjay!! we were supposed to go buy it but he got it for me. thank you babe!! and going to watch the hunger games didn’t work out. we’re planning to go friday now. i’m. excited! then we ate. he practiced his spanish while i did bio homework. and he just left. he’s gonna start calling me vaca. .. but now i need to finish my bio homework. then imma finish my chem online homework. then imma finish my chem written homework. then imma shower. and THEN hopefully i have enough energy to finish catching fire. but ok. bye people.

april 17th 2012

i woke up around 4. i couldn’t sleep so i finished my chem homework. bleh. i woke up around 6:30. i got ready. i left for school. parked in lot 30 thinking it would be closer but it’s sooo far. mehh. i powerwalked to class. bio. i really like that class, prolly my favorite this quarter. i just enjoy bio and the experiments are neat compared to chemistry. it doesn’t feel like were in there for three hours. then calculus. i was trying so hard not to fall asleep. and aehh, mr. udupa’s class has only taught me so much. i need to study, i’m a bit confused. then chemistry. didn’t get a clicker question right. so there’s no point in being there if i’m not gonna get participation credit. i honestly, HATE this professor so much. i wanna punch him and his stupid accent. so i left. got gas. gas prices need to go down. then i went to bradley’s. sat there for about an hour watching scrubs then i came home. i ate then i knocked out for about two hours. i woke up and showered. i just finished my bio homework. and..it’s weird. i have nothing else due tonight or tommorow. i have the rest of the day to read. i’m about half way done with catching fire. and i can fall asleep early and actually get a good nights rest! but first, imma go make myself a well deserved cup of noodles and continue reading. i wanna watch the movie soooo much now. aeh. but the first showing isn’t til 12 and i wouldn’t have time to finish it or go to class. so i guess for my six hour break tommorow i shall be reading or doing homework or sleeping. i’ll prolly watch it later tommorow afternoon but i’ll wait. bye people.

april 16th 2012

i’ll write a little about yesterday too. ok so april 15th. woke up and finished reading the hunger games rght away. aeehh. it was so good. then i knocked out i think. i found a pdf file of catching fire online and i was so tempted. i did some homework. i got ready and went to brad’s. i was driving my brother’s little honda civic. i guess street racing car? idk. but i pulled up on highand and someone was like hey! so i turned and these two guys are looking at me and asked me to race! i was like uh..uh..no..not my car. i should have raced them though. his car is way fast! i love it. but ok. goot to bradley’s. we watched some tv. then ate! good stuff. then they watched something while i read online haha. couldn’t help it. then just cuddled with brad for a while and came home. i was up til around 1 finishing my essay and trying not to get distracted. then i fell asleep.

i got up at 5 this morning. took me a while to get up. i showered.  mehh, no time for doing my hair so hair naturally curly. i left for school. stupid effin english class. “oh i’m sorry blackboard wasn’t up over the weekend. you can turn in your essay on wednesday.” omg. class ended and i headed straight for the campus store. catching fire come to me. i went up to the hub. read for about an hour then knocked out. i woke up to these two annoying girls on the couch laughing. they’re always in there early mornings. ..go away. i got up and walked to the restroom and omg my eyes were super red. i looked like i was high! then i went by my next class. sat there and read. ceanne joined me. there were a ton of rolliepollies!! everywhere! in the building ha. then calc workshop. lame. the ta’s so weird. he was like i haven’t memorized your names so i will take this camera around a record you guys saying your name. wtf? then bio. boring. then hour break. finished my chem stuff. then chem lab. first group to finish. yeah. then came home. i read a bit and knocked out. i woke up to my mom and brad staring down at me in the living room couch. hmm..he got a translator for spanish-english for preparing for his mission and it’s the funniest thing (and cutest) teaching him to speak spanish. now i’m in my room and about to do my calc and chem homework. no sleep for me again. meh.

i found

a pdf file of catching fire online. free. i’m so tempted.

april 14th 2012

i woke up at six. i got ready. i went over to brad’s. we went to cal state. 5k. i didn’t run this one. i hadn’t been practicing and i didn’t want to pay so much for it. and it was cold. i got to see bekah, woo. brad did good, actually everyone did good! then we went to del taco. tacos, yey. i went to brad’s and came home. i started reading. then i had to clean, mehh. i cleaned my room and the dishes and what not. then i kept reading. i got over 3/4s into it. then i went over to bradley’s. we went to sydney jacobs house. she was going to mormon prom and we helped her get ready. she looked SO PRETTY! we went back to brad’s house. we watched survivor. stupid jay. then carrie and alonso came over. we watched puss in boots. i knocked out in the middle of it though. and i woke up to the sound of screaming and them rocking the sofa i was in. i was about to start crying but i held it in. i get scared so easily. then we played scattergories. hahaha. i love that game. then played COD. i hadn’t played in forever. good stuff. i’m still pretty good i think. oh yeah, and i woke up to a penis and “i’m gay” on my arms in ink. then i came home. i’m so tired but i don’t think i can wait til morning to finish the book. i have about 70 pages left. imma do it. goodnight people.

april 14th 2012

i set my alarm for 5:30 but woke up til around 6:20. i rushed to get ready. rushed to school. english. meh. then a six hour break omg. i did my chem lab homework and was about to kncok out when nicole came. we hung out for a bit and she needed a book so we went to the campus store and i saw the hunger games. so i was like hmm, i should read it. i don’t wanna watch the movie. she left around 10? four hour break to go! so i started reading and omg..it’s so good. i can’t help but picture the characters from the movie though so that kinda sucks but aehh it’s so intense and good! i had chem si at 2 but i didn’t wanna put the book down. i read over half of it. people are gonna start thinking i braid my hair because of katniss. then chem si. meh. the ta seems weird. then ran with ady like a mile across campus in the pouring rain. i was soaked when i got to the car. meh. drove home. i like driving in the rain. a lot. got home. ate CAKE. then went shopping with sonia. i got bradley a tie and got myself some pants and a tank top. woo. then came home. ate! then showered. i wanted to sleep sooo bad. and i wanted to finish reading sooo bad. but i knocked out.

my cat

is starting to bug the crap out of me. i’d always wanted a cat but this one is so annoying. i think all cats i’ve met are pretty bitchy. ALL. OF. THEM. i wanna give him away i think. i guess i’ll aways be more of a dog person. they’re ACTUALLY happy to see you or play with you or be wth you.

april 12th 2012

i don’t wanna write about today. it was boring. and i don’t wanna write this rough draft. i’ve been procrastinating all day. but on a brighter side, i’m sitting here laughing to myself like a dumbass about the dolan memes. gooby pls. hahahahahaha.

april 11th 2012

meh. woke up around 5. didn’t get up til 5:30. kept letting my snooze go off. i got ready. meh..rain. i got to school. english. bleh, i should prolly start writing my essay. then i decided to go home. well not really home but not stay at school. six hour break. so i went over to brad’s. we watched some television. cuddled in this cold weather. we went to victoria gardens. shopping for him, woo. he got some shoes and a shirt. then we went to upland and to the ensign bookstore. mormon bookstore. he got his scriptures. we wanna get ctr rings and a bunch of stuff before he leaves. then we came home and watched some more television. i came home. i ate and knocked out. i woke up and went over to brad’s again. colleen joined us for our run. woo. same old three mile run. i need to get faster. then we watched survivor and i came back home. and i showered and now i’m doing stupid chem homework. this. class. sucks. omg. i hate it so. but oh well. i just want the weekend. please.